Chapter 46 - 46 - I Hate You
I don\'t know if he will believe me. I looked at him and I couldn\'t see any reaction from him. His face was still the same. Cold and angry.
"I don\'t care. I don\'t care if you already have someone else. Fuck any guy you want! I\'m just here for my son! I have already forgotten you anyway! I hate you!"
I felt that my heart was crushed. I wanted to cry. He hates me. He said he already forgot about me. Is there someone else? I turned around before he could see my face. I walked towards the kitchen and didn\'t say a word.
"I will stay here tonight. Tomorrow we\'ll go back home. Don\'t you dare argue with me. Or you won\'t like the consequences." He said.
Every word coming from him was like daggers piercing my heart. He\'s not the same Jayden from before. His eyes were cold as ice. It was emotionless.
I nodded and continued to prepare dinner. I won\'t argue with him anymore. I knew this day would come. I knew he would find me. I know he was mad at me.
For 3 years, I wouldn\'t expect him to be single. He was a playboy before he even met me. Our relationship happened so fast. We became a couple, had sex, I got pregnant and planned to get married. We were happy. I was happy. But fate had a different plan for us. She made our lives entangled starting with our parents.
I know he\'s been staring at me while I\'m in the kitchen. I couldn\'t look at him but his gaze is making me hot. I could feel my body burning for him. All the years that we\'re not together, I have never forgotten him. There\'s no one else. I couldn\'t even look for another man. My heart and body will always belong to him. I wanted to tell him that.
Missy and Caden went out of the room. I frowned when I saw them wearing winter clothes.
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"Mommy, we\'ll buy ice cream." Caden answered.
I tensed. They will leave me with him? I looked at Missy but she was ignoring me. I know she\'s doing it on purpose. Before I protested, they were already out of the house.
I took a deep breath and was startled when I sensed Jayden behind me. I froze. His hands were holding on to the kitchen sink, cornering me. I turned around so I could get away from him but that was actually a mistake. He was so close that I could smell the scent of his perfume and his breath. God! I missed that smell. Sugar and honey.
"W-What are you doing?" I asked.
"What do you think?" He answered me with a question.
When I didn\'t answer, he then pressed his lips with mine. His kiss was gentle yet I can feel his longing for me. I wanted to cry again. I missed him so much that I voluntarily parted my lips so he could slip his tongue inside my mouth. And he did.
I wanted more but he released me after a short kiss. I saw him smirking while staring at me.
"You\'re a bad liar." He said then walk away from me.
He went back to the living room and sat on the couch as if nothing happened. My heart was beating so fast but I tried to act like he wasn\'t affecting me.
After a few minutes, Caden and Missy came back. Caden sat beside Jayden, showing him the drawings he made.
Missy walked towards me and was staring at me.
"Are you okay? You\'re red like a tomato." She teased.
I glared at her but she ignored it.
Dinner went smoothly. Jayden didn\'t talk to me but he was talking to Caden. I can see both of them were having fun together.
"Daddy where are you going to sleep? I want to sleep next to you but my bed is too small."
"We\'ll sleep together at home." He said, smiling at him. It was the first time I saw him smile ever since he arrived here. I fell in love with him again.
What the hell is wrong with you, heart? It\'s been 3 years, he said he forgot about you. He hates you. He might have a girlfriend now. No, I\'m sure he has. Just thinking of him with another girl, I felt like my heart was stabbed a hundred times over. But I couldn\'t do anything about it, it was my fault after all.
"How about you sleep with mommy?" Caden suddenly blurted.
I was surprised but I can\'t show Caden that I\'m not getting along with his father. It will break his heart.
"Mommy wouldn\'t like that?" Jayden answered.
"Why? Are you and mommy fighting?"
I can see that Caden became sad and was about to cry. Jayden was about to answer but I cut him off.
"No, honey we\'re not. Daddy will s-sleep with m-me. D-Don\'t worry." I stuttered.
I looked at Jayden and he had a wide grin on his face. He\'s enjoying this.
"Really? Mommy, I\'m so happy. We\'ll be together from now on, right?" I could see Caden\'s face was full of happiness so I nodded.
After dinner, I took Caden to his room and cleaned him. He really looks like his father.
"Mommy, are you happy?" He asked.
"Why do you ask?"
"Because I know you cry every night while looking at daddy\'s picture." He suddenly said.
Tears fell from my eyes. I didn\'t realize I was worrying him. I pulled him to my arms and hugged him tight.
"I\'m sorry, honey. Mommy is a coward." I said while sobbing.
"But daddy is here now. You won\'t get sad anymore, right."
I pat his head and kissed him on the forehead.
"Yes. So go to sleep. We\'ll be flying home tomorrow." I said, smiling at him.
I went inside the room and Jayden just came out from the shower. I frowned when I saw him half naked.
"Can you put on a shirt?" I said.
He ignored me and sat on the bed.
"I-I\'ll sleep on the floor."
He suddenly stood up and rushed towards me. I walked backwards until I felt my back leaning on the wall. He cornered me, his hands were on both sides of my head.
"Do you really think I\'m that stupid?" He said, almost yelling.