Kiss Me Not

"We became official yesterday, Harry." She whispered with an awkward smile. There was this intense atmosphere. Kimmy did not know what else to say to break the embarrassing scene.

Cain pulled Kimmy away from the Ferris wheel, and Harry followed.

"Kimmy," Harry called. He did not know why he followed and called Kimmy, probably because what was happening did not sink in yet to him fully. He asked Kimmy out to finally confess to her how he was wrong and how he realized that he wanted her in his life. That he was willing to start anew like what Kimmy would suggest without looking back on his past, thinking he no longer deserved to be happy.

Cain stopped walking when Harry called Kimmy. He turned to Harry and said, "I am sorry if this looks rude to you, but no boyfriend will allow his woman to entertain a friend alone who looks at her more than being a friend. I\'m sure you are old enough to know your way back to your hotel, Mr. Harry."

Harry cut his tongue out. Kimmy only gave him an apologetic look. He stood rooted on where he was, unable to move. He did not have the energy to move while looking at Kimmy\'s back. He lost her once… Did it mean that he now lost her forever?

Harry wanted the whole ground to eat him alive, thinking it was his bad karma because of his ugly past. Kimmy was wrong… He probably did not deserve to be happy in this lifetime.

Cain walked briskly, still holding Kimmy\'s wrist tightly as if he was afraid she would get away from him.

"You\'re hurting me," Kimmy whispered. Cain stopped walking when he heard Kimmy. He instantly released her wrist and whispered, "I am sorry, Kimberly."

He grabbed Kimmy\'s wrist again, and this time, it was to check it and caress it. He inwardly cursed, seeing it was red from his grip.

"You do know that this isn\'t the way out to this theme park," Kimmy mumbled with a pout on her lips while Cain gently rubbed her wrist. She was still annoyed but seeing him like this melted her heart.

Cain looked around. He thought he was pulling her outside. No wonder he couldn\'t find the exit! His mind was in haywire that he did not notice he walked the wrong way. He was so clouded with the thought of getting Kimmy away from Harry.

"I don\'t know why you are so worked up like that. I mean, I am planning to tell Harry about us for an open opportunity. It\'s too awkward if I will just suddenly tell him that, hey Harry, guess what? Cain has been my boyfriend since yesterday!"

"It\'s not like he confessed his love for me that I needed to straighten him up that instant. What if he was here as a friend only? I don\'t want to go overboard telling him my love life when he is not asking, or the situation does not ask for a need for me to spill it. And yet, here you are, and you have to spoil things like that harshly. I even asked you last night if it\'s okay with you if I go and tour him around as his only friend in this country!" Kimmy retorted with flaring nostrils.

Cain exhaled loudly, removing the feeling of frustration in his system. He, too, was mad, but things would mess up if he would not calm down. He gazed straight into Kimmy\'s eyes and whispered, "I am sorry. Just that I feel so jealous, seeing you are with another guy. I thought I could handle it, but I guess it\'s easier said than done. I didn\'t mean for this to happen like this."

Kimmy inhaled and exhaled loudly. She looked at her hands held by Cain. Her eyebrows creased because she felt his hands tremble.

\'Was he affected?\' she mused in concern. She bit her inner cheek. She somehow understood Cain, but she could not help but pity Harry too. She knew Harry well enough, and she was bothered by how he would take what just happened. Harry condemned himself for so long because of his past, and now he was probably trying to live his life like what she would always tell him, but she just ruined things for him because of today\'s incident.

None of them would want this to happen, but the circumstances were ugly.

Maybe Cain was right, Harry had other intentions towards her, but he could be wrong also. What if Harry just wanted to see her and see how she was doing? But if Cain was right, it would be nice if she would be the one to tell it to Harry, right? Was it not?

"Do you need to talk to him?" Cain whispered while reading Kimmy\'s expression. In times like that, Cain hoped that he was not a psychologist who could easily read and interpret someone\'s mind by their expression alone. He could see the worry on Kimmy\'s face… worry for Harry.

"Harry… I\'m worried that he might do something stupid. You see, he tried to end his life several times before, and I saved him every time. I need to make sure that he is doing fine. I think I need to talk to him personally, or I will regret it if I don\'t." Kimmy honestly said.

"Go now and talk to him if you must," Cain whispered with dropped shoulders though he managed to give Kimmy a reassuring smile.

Kimmy hugged Cain and whispered, "I will see you later, okay. Thank you."

Cain only nodded and watched Kimmy turn her back on him as she ran back to the Ferris wheel where they left Harry. He clenched his fist so tight that his knuckles turned white.

Kimmy said she would see him later but would she really return to him? What if she realized that it was Harry she wanted to be with and not him. What if Harry weighed more than him?

He honestly understood Kimmy\'s sentiment, and he must consider how long Kimmy and Harry had been together, but his heart was aching too much. But why did it feel like sh*t inside! Was he overacting?

He knew he must not assume so easily, and Kimmy might be acting like that as a good friend only, but damn, it still hurt that he wanted to cry his heart out, but he must remain calm and keep at least a little pride left in him intact. Where would he go now? Must he leave or wait for her?

****

Kimmy was panting when she reached the Ferris wheel. Harry was no longer there to where they left him. She pulled her mobile phone from her purse and was about to dial Harry\'s number when her eyes darted at the bench near the Ferris wheel. Harry was sitting there. His head bowed down.

She heaved a long sigh of relief, and then she walked towards him. Just in his look, Kimmy could tell Cain was right. He looked so downhearted and hurt. She was standing in front of him but Harry did not notice. He kept sighing.

"What\'s there to see on the ground?" Kimmy asked with a creased forehead.

Harry lifted his head, and he whispered, "Kimmy."

Kimmy sat beside him and said, "yeah, in the flesh."

"You\'re back," Harry murmured.

"Yeah, because I am worried. I mean, I don\'t want us to part like that. I am sorry about earlier, you see, my boyfriend seems to be the jealous type, and I\'m yet to discover more things about him, to be honest."

"I thought you\'re still... and I am so," Harry whispered, unable to say the words.

"Do you think I can wait forever for you after you cast me away for good? I was really hurt at that time that I vowed never to step foot wherever you are again…" Kimmy mumbled.

"I know and I regretted it when you left. Honestly, it took me long to gather up my courage to see you like this after that. But I guess I was too late," Harry stutteringly said.

"Honestly, when I agreed to meet you before, Cain and I are still not in a relationship. I want to compare my feelings towards you and him. You mean a lot to me Harry, and I once loved you before but at this moment… I am not willing to leave Cain. He meant a lot to me, and I don\'t want to hurt him or see him hurt because it makes my heart ache.. I\'m not sure of what I am feeling for him right now, but there is one thing I\'m sure of… I don\'t want to lose him."