Chapter 681 - 681 Chapter 681 Tempted By Darkness.
Perhaps, Desmond from the past would have been tempted by the idea of having sex with both Mei Fei Long and Miao Xiauyue, especially if he could be with both at the same time. When all was said and done, Fei Long and Xiauyue were stunningly beautiful women, and their figures were more than enough to tempt any man. Beyond that, Desmond had a good impression of both girls and even had a slight attraction to them.
However, Desmond had changed a lot, and the idea that would have been tempting before now sounded more like a nightmare. Of course, it wasn’t that Desmond had a dislike or anything similar for Fei Long and Xiauyue, the problem was that Desmond had developed a strong dislike for his former hedonism after his experience in Lilith’s world. Not to mention that Desmond still had more of a problem with the subject of having children.
For all of the above, Desmond had a bit of an overreaction to Mei Fei Long’s request, but it only took him a couple of seconds to recover. With some clarity returned, Desmond looked somewhat solemnly at his friend. In addition to worry and longing, Desmond saw in Fei Long’s blue eyes that she already knew what the answer to her question would be, that disappointment was impossible to hide.
Enduring the discomfort in his chest, Desmond was as honest as he could in his response. “Fei, I’m sorry, but I can’t do that for you.”
Fei Long felt that someone was sticking a needle into her heart and twisting it viciously, but she still resisted the urge to cry and dared to ask. “May I know the reason?”
As sharp as Desmond was, how could he not realize how much his refusal had hurt Fei Long? However, he couldn’t give in, so he could only bite the bullet and respond. “I just can not. I feel that if I do this it would damage more than just my relationship with Claire, Sasha, Revna, and Cecilia, it would also damage your relationship with Xiauyue. I also can’t see myself being able to stay away from children that are mine, and I didn’t think that’s what you’re looking for. I hope you understand that I would like to help you and Xiauyue, but I cannot do what you ask of me.”
To Desmond’s surprise, despite feeling hurt, Fei Long took his words to heart and seriously pondered them. “You’re right, it’s not what I want for me and Xiauyue or you; I’m sorry for asking you for something like that.”
Desmond shook his head before placing his hand on Fei Long’s shoulder. “Don’t worry, I understand that this idea could cross your mind and you couldn’t help but ask. I am only sorry that you and Xiauyue are going through so much.”
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Fei Long took Desmond’s hand, finding comfort in that warmth brought by friendship. “I’m tired of fighting Desmond, but I’m not afraid to keep doing it, I’d rather die fighting than lose what I love. Those bastards are coming for me and Xiauyue? I’ll send them straight to hell like I did everyone who came before them.”
“I’ll help as much as I can.” Desmond replied feeling that it was unnecessary to say anything else.
Seconds passed, and Fei Long eventually found the resolve that she had lost for a moment. Sensing that it was time to go back to her room, Fei Long thanked Desmond with a hug and left the room. “Thanks for listening to me Desmond, I’m so glad you came.”
Seeing Fei Long close the door behind her on her way out, Desmond sighed with relief and a bit of weariness. “Of all the things I thought would happen to me, this was not one of them.”
As always when he was alone, Desmond’s habit of talking loudly manifested itself quickly. “It seems that Fei Long and Xiauyue have had a very hard time, which I expected to some degree, I just didn’t expect that they were going through a phase of desperately wanting children.”
To say that Desmond was still somewhat overwhelmed by the situation was fair enough, but his senses were as sharp as ever, so his attention quickly shifted to the intruder who had come into the room midway through his conversation with Fei Long. “Anything you want to say Revna?”
As if it were the most natural thing in the world, Revna emerged from the shadows, a faint blush visible on her cheeks, perhaps because Desmond had caught her eavesdropping or for another reason only she knew. “Not much to say, I believed that it is perfectly natural for a woman as beautiful and exceptional as Fei Long to want to have Master’s children, receiving your seed could be considered the blessing of a lifetime.”
If he wasn’t already low on blood, Desmond would have vomited gallons of it after hearing Revna’s outrageous ideas. Desmond had always thought he knew how obsessed and crazy Revna was about him, but it seemed like he had greatly underestimated her. No matter how vain Desmond was, having those kinds of ideas or even accepting those ideas coming from Revna was simply delusional and dangerous, to say the least. To make matters worse, Revna seemed serious about it.
Lost in thoughts, Desmond didn’t realize the dangerous way Revna was looking at him at that moment. Before Desmond knew what was happening, Revna was already on her knees in front of him, her face resting against his thigh as she looked directly into his eyes.
That maelstrom of madness, love, and obsession was completely focused on seeing her Master in the eyes while she asked a question that came from her heart. “Is what you said to Fei Long true? You turned her down for the good of us. You rejected her for a humble and sullied girl like me.”
There was more than mockery in Revna’s voice when she talked about herself, there was also a deep contempt that came from the trauma that caused her everything she had been through as well as her perception of herself after having gone through those things.
Desmond understood Revna to a certain extent, he knew some things that were told to him by the rest of the girls in Garden. Desmond found it hard to believe when the girls in Garden told him that Revna was still a virgin, though he soon understood why once they explained it to him.
While Desmond never really cared about it, since he would never treat Revna any differently because of something that happened to her against her will, Desmond was still very surprised that she was still a virgin. This was especially the case because of the way Revna spoke on the subject and about herself.
Unfortunately, although Desmond knew about these things, he was never really able to talk to Revna about them as she had built a wall around those memories. However, it was moments like this when Revna put herself down, that Desmond wanted to get into that head of her that she had to stop thinking that way.
“Do you think that you are a lowly and unworthy girl?” Desmond asked with pain and compassion. Revna’s response was to be expected. “Yeah.”
Desmond lifted his hand and began stroking Revna’s reddish curls lovingly, his eyes full of love and tenderness as he asked the girl a question. “Then tell me, like you Master, does that mean that I have a such bad taste that I keep a humble and unworthy girl around me? Am I so blind or am I that stupid?”
When her obsession and almost fanatical love for Desmond were used against her, there wasn’t much Revna could do but fall silent with a look of surprise. Desmond smiled and leaned down to kiss Sasha’s forehead. “Silly girl, why can’t you just admit that you deserve all the love I can give you? Where are that confidence and that sublime elegance with which you danced when fighting? Why do you have to lower yourself instead of accepting that you are my beloved goddess of shadows?”
What could Revna do besides get lost in those sweet words? All of her madness, all of her obsession, and all of the love that she seethed within her just poured out like water spilling from a broken dam.
Finding courage that she would never have on a normal day, Revna did not wait for her Master to express his desire for her or initiate intimacy with her, instead, she rose to bring her thirsty lips to her long-awaited destination. Desmond did nothing to stop Revna, nor did he take the initiative to fan the flames of passion, instead he simply took everything Revna had to give him letting the girl be in control for the first time since they had met.